“Our ability to find something to love…depends greatly on how we resolve and integrate where we’ve been before.” ~Mark Nepo
Yesterday was a day of celebration. Me and Dana (I’ve written about Dana in A Friend for the Journey) had a picnic, a tradition that started nearly 4 years ago when we found each other on the path of lives. The intersection where our lives crossed was breast cancer. We started in a very dark place, each other a source of light, taking turns leading the way. How special to pause and reflect on where we’ve been and how we’ve been able to integrate our experience into our lives, now breathing into a life that is lighter.
The reading in Mark Nepo’s The Book of Awakening spoke to me that morning. I shared it with her at the picnic table under the shady tree in the park. Together we paused in a moment in silence and gratitude. He writes about the nautilus and the spiral shell it builds, and how it lives in the most recent chamber keeping its buoyancy with gas or liquid in the older chambers. He asks, can we build strong chambers with our traumas, not living there but breaking our past down till it is fluid enough to lose most of its weight…can we internalize where we’ve been enough to know that we are no longer living there? When we can life will seem lighter.
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