Liquid Flowing


I blogged today at This Abundantly Delicious Life about writing and how it can take me to a place of heart. I vividly remember during my recovery from the mastectomy sitting at our dining room table with my journal and some inspirational books. I started writing and all of a sudden I realized that a poem was flowing from my hand onto the page. I started from a place of darkness, consumed by the change and uncertainty, thinking about ‘what will be’ and gradually, gracefully through my cathartic writing, moved to the present moment, where I found a deep sense of peace. As I re-read the poem now I can clearly see the shift from head to heart, a movement that happens like liquid flowing.

The Me I’ve Always Been
By Vicki L. Flaherty

I stand before the mirror.
Naked and vulnerable.
I see my body changed forever.
Scars reminders of the cancer —
so ominous and threatening.
I stare and ask: how can this be?

I breathe, deeply.
I try to open my heart.
I tell myself that with time my body will heal.
And this will be integrated into my life.
Over and over again, day aft er day,
I stand, and I look, seeking meaning and wholeness.

With time, I begin to see around what’s changed.
I know I am good, just as I am,
yet I don’t quite believe, ever-questioning.
More and more as I look beyond the physical image,
I feel the darkness gradually lifting.
I identify with the light, and I see it dancing in me.
I see that I am complete.
I see the me that I have always been.

© copyright Vicki L. Flaherty, Mostly My Heart Sings, 2013


About Vicki Flaherty

I feel most alive when I am creating, whether through my writing and poetry, gardening and photography, or simply living my life each day. Running and yoga enrich my being. Travel opens me to new possibilities and greater awareness. I am happiest when I’m with my husband Jim. I share my gratitude for all the gifts in my life on my This Abundantly Delicious Life blog. I find a special joy in helping people succeed. I’ve done something valuable when I’ve helped a colleague or friend see their brilliance and express their full potential. I have awesome opportunities to do this as an industrial/organizational psychologist through leadership, mentoring, coaching, career and other talent programs. I try to encourage Leading with Intention at my blog of this name. As a breast cancer survivor, I found comfort and hope in writing. Poetry flowed through me like a river of healing during my diagnosis and treatment, which I share on my Mostly My Heart Sings blog, that I might offer encouragement and a place of grace and heart for those seeking comfort and hope along their journey.

4 responses »

  1. Downright beautiful… I’m sure so many women can relate to the process you described so well. I’m not a cancer survivor, but I have to say that I can relate to the process simply because of aging. Maybe I’m just a bit more insecure, but I can relate nonetheless.

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